Physically I’m here
Mentally I’m not
Emotionally I feel it all
Emotionally I am numb
Trying to be strong
Remembering all the bad thoughts
Trying to make new good memories
I can’t stop this feeling
This feeling
These thoughts
I don’t know why I’m like this
I’m so off
It’s all my fault
I’m a mess
I broke myself
I hurt myself
As I look at my reflection
I can’t see anything
I can’t stop feeling
I can’t stop feeling so numb
I’m tired of being me
I’m tired of hurting
Just so tired of being tired
Just can’t open up
I’m so scared
I don’t feel like I’m real
Just feeling like I’m a bother
Feeling like everyone is pretending
They’re pretending to love me
I’m a mess
I don’t know what to do
I want to stop feeling
But I want to stop feeling so numb
I’m broken
I’m a card tower
Just waiting to blow over
All I can think
All I can feel
I just want to stop it all
Wanting to stop hurting
Don’t want to hurt anyone
Hating myself
Loving them
I know I deserve life
But I never thought
Never thought I’d make it this far
Just never believed in me
I need to learn who I am
Not knowing what to do
But knowing I’ll be okay
As best I can be
I’ll love me
Just how I love them
I need to change myself
And I’ll learn while loving everyone
Loving everyone that loves me
Trying to be strong
But I feel so much love and hate
Love for them
Hate for me
And I don’t know how to stop
Never going to give up trying
Trying to love me for me
While loving them with my whole heart