Searching for myself
Fleeing from myself
Running into the arms of the enemy inside
But nothing stops this love
Looking at myself
Just staring at myself
I try to see anything
But I just can’t see what they do
The demons are screaming
Fighting with myself
Hiding from myself
I’m standing right here
But I’m too petrified to move away
Blessed with so many that I know love me
That I know I will forever love
Surrounded by myself
Barely surviving as myself
I can’t find what I’m looking for
But I’m still and forever searching inside of me
Dancing with myself
Stepping around myself
I know I’m never really alone
But I don’t want to be a bother
I do know they aren’t bothered by me
I just feel like I’m a neusance to all
Even to the voices
Arguing with myself
Ignoring myself
Everything I say confuses me
But I’m trying to get the words out
Trying to speak the right conversations
How do I know?
How do any of us know?
Befriending myself
And seeing myself
I’m looking for the millionth time
But I’m finally starting to feel real
Finally started the journey to becoming
What?
I’m not sure
But I’m going to become MYSELF
Like I always meant to be